"I wouldn't go back to high school, but I'd go back to college in a heartbeat."
"You won't want to graduate. Ever."
I had countless people repeat these phrases to me millions of times the summer before I went off to college at the University of Georgia. Just graduating from a truly wonderful four years of high school in a beautiful small southern town had me wondering if these people who told me these things really knew what they were talking about. I seriously had it made in high school. Leaving behind cheerleading, serving as class president and yearbook editor, being an honor student, and baby-sitting for my teachers made me nervous about transitioning to my new life as a college student. Everyone told me that I would be absolutely fine...
They were wrong. I hated it. I cried myself to sleep nearly every night, could barely keep any food in my stomach due to all my anxiety, and the only way I could ever calm down was by telling myself that I would move back home to Statesboro and transfer to Georgia Southern next semester.
That lasted about three weeks, and then I realized that all those people were right. And I owe my recovery to three amazing young women. One who I had met five years prior and went to high school with, but never got the chance to know. The other who I found quite annoying at first, but quickly realized her heart was ten times as big as her mouth (and that's BIG!). And another who I originally thought was stuck up, but then found out what a caring, funny, and supportive friend she really was. I consider having these three wonderful people walk into my life as a sign from God that I am where He wants me to be.
The past couple of days, I was fortunate enough to spend some time with my dad during one of his business trips to Athens. I took advantage of his visit to introduce him to my friends and was thrilled when he not only approved but also seemed to love them and appreciate them for who they are just as much as I do. His trip here ended just a few hours ago as he had to get back home. I'm always a little depressed whenever I have to say goodbye to a close friend or family member that I know I will not get to see in awhile, and this time is no different.
So that's when I decided to go see my incredible friends to get my spirits back up. As I was talking to them and feeling my mood being uplifted, I realized something. I had just said goodbye to a family member, but I had also just returned to my family... Wow. I was rather astonished when I realized this, because I had never really opened up to anyone other than my mom, dad, brother, and sister before, but these girls already have seen every side of me and know more about my life than many of my close friends from high school. Heck, they probably know a bit more about me than my parents, but we won't go there...
"I don't want to graduate. Ever"
"I'm having the time of my life."
These are my thoughts and words now. I finally understand what all those people were saying. I honestly do want things to stay just as they are now. Two of my favorite people right next door, the other across the street. All just a text message or phone call away to listen to whatever nonsense I have on my mind. (And believe me - I'm full of crazy nonsense.) I have met a lot of people throughout this past year, and I know that I will not stay in touch with all of them. But I know these girls are here to stay...
Lord, thank you for these three wonderful blessings you have placed in my life.
And Ashley, Meagen, and Brea - I LOVE YOU! Promise me that we'll always stay friends and that we'll always, ALWAYS stay "19 & Crazy." :)
"This belly button dangle
Will probably just be one of those things
I won't be showing off too often at 65.
This butterfly tattoo
Might be something I'll tell my kids not to do.
Spring Break shouldn't last the rest of your life.
There were things
I should not have done. (Law school, disappearing at AGR, cough cough)
Then again
Well we sure had fun.
Being free, being wild, being bulletproof
Back then we were rebels without a clue
Nothing in the world that we wouldn't do
Whoa Oh Oh Oh Oh
Didn't give a damn what people say
We were doing it, doing it our way
I WISH THAT WE COULD ALWAYS STAY
19 AND CRAZY!
The only things that I regret
Are the things that we didn't do.
Those crazy days that I have left
Have led me here to you...
Being free, being wild, being bulletproof
RIGHT NOW we're rebels without a clue
Nothing in this world that we can't do
Don't give a damn what people say
'Cause we're doin' it, doin' it OUR WAY
I WISH THAT WE COULD ALWAYS STAY
19 AND CRAZY!
PROMISE ME, WE WILL ALWAYS STAY
19 AND CRAZY..."
-Bomshel
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